As a blogger, I live with the constant “push/pull” of living life and writing about life. There are times when I am so into living, that I’m out of energy – or time – to find words to talk about it. It takes too much to analyze what I’d say because all my energies are put into experiencing life. There are other times when all my energies are focused on writing, but I am a bit short on the living part which I need in order to have anything worth while to say! My optimum is when the two are in balance, and I can both live and write – and it’s this that I hope for in these entries.
I’ve lived long – (age 62) – though I don’t know if I’ve lived well. As I reflect, I wonder if I allowed “fear” to keep me from experiencing more of what life had to offer me. I was born and raised in the suburbs of Philly, met my husband in college, married in 1971, and raised our one son on eastern Long Island. Right now my husband and I are in the “retirement” stage of life, and are at present “snow birds”, living the “summer” half of the year on Long Island, and the “winter” half on Hilton Head Island. I find it amusing that we have homes on the two largest barrier islands off the east coast of the US, which says something about us that needs no further explanation!
In short – I am an internet junkie, who loves digital photography, cats, blogging and music. I’ve come to my love of photography later in life, and my seriousness is reflected in the purchase of my Canon Xsi camera in 2008. I continue to covet bigger and stronger lenses for it, but get them slowly – but surely – as I’m able. Photography is my way of sharing how I see the world and what “beauty” is to me. Even when I don’t have my camera with me, in my mind, I’m always “forming photos”!
On the other hand, my love of music has been in my heart forever. I love many kinds of music from classical to classic rock. I’ve sung in church choirs since I was in elementary school, and more recently learned to play handbells, although I am not in a handbell choir at present. I’m also a flutist, and started on that path in 5th grade, and is an integral part of who I am. I often play solos in church, flute obbligatos with choir anthems, and piano/flute concerts with my friend, Claire.
On December 1, 2010 we lost our 15 year old cat, Shadow whom we loved to pieces. We’d lovingly cared for her various health issues for the last 5 years of her life: over active thyroid, and kidney failure, which included giving medication and subcutaneous infusions. Her tiny picture is on my layout next to my blog title. Her litter mate brother, Phantom died on November 29th, 2006 from an inner ear tumor.
On January 7, 2011 we added Misty and Felix to our lives – two tuxedo litter mate kittens we got from the Hilton Head Humane Association. It took them maybe 10 minutes to claim our home as theirs – and even less time for us to fall in love with them. Their picture, as well as one of Phantom and Shadow as kittens are pictured on the sidebar of this blog.
The internet changed my life in far reaching ways. I often wonder how different my life would have been if had not embraced the internet. First and foremost – I’ve met so many people online, a few of whom have transitioned into “Real Life” friends. I also think about how much I would have enjoyed blogging during my younger years in school – or when raising my son. I remember especially craving more “connections” during those years. I began online life in 1994 on CompuServe’s forums. When that service waned, I moved from there to various internet spots. Today I’ve embraced social networking (on Facebook), have a non public journal, and a site on Flickr (http://www.flickr.com/photos/sweetmeow/ for my photos. Now it’s time that I embark on public blogging right here.
My life is more often than not, mundane and routine. It’s my opinion that most lives really are. I’m not sure anyone could handle high drama on a day to day basis. Yet — these small things have meaning and bring many thoughts to mind, which I reflect upon here. Join me in these musings….!